I want to change my life
a collection of my recent thoughts
I want to change my life
It’s cold and chilly as I walk down the road back home. I’m tired, a bit frustrated, and tense overall.
I close my eyes as the sunset glazes on my face; a light turns on in my head. Hope.
There’s still hope. Just persevere; the silver lining is closer than you think.
I imagine what life would look like a year from now if I fully obsess over my goals. I’d still be working as hard, if not harder. But there’s a level of choice in the difficulty I face.
My pain will not forced upon me.
It will be chosen by me.
I don’t run every week because it’s written in sacred scripture. I do it because it’s like an escape; it’s the pain I chose to embody.
It feels liberating to have personal autonomy.
Which is why the thought of a 9-to-5 sends shivers down my spine.
I want to change my life. And I will do what it takes.
Abdussalam
17th of February, 2025
“Adapted from my internal monologue”
What I learnt this week
Some quotes and aphorisms
It takes tons of work: I started making posts on socials in the past week. It’s so fun yet so stressful and demanding (I can’t complain)
Those who blew right by me are no different, they are just more obsessed. Find your obsession and hunt it (I’m still seeking, I feel I'm close)
The edge you have is time and energy, the edge they have is skill, experience and network. Play the right bets, and utilise your edge.
Confidence check
What happens when someone you admire copies your work?
You realise you are pretty much a badass, and all you need is time and consistent, repeated effort.
That was my experience this week when a designer I admired copied the video I made about Apple’s design word for word in a tweet.
It was more of an empowering moment.
I’ll win, it’d just take time.
Wana hear me talk about life and struggle?
I made a private video journal only you have access to (keep it between us both :)
Leave a comment if you watch it.
I want to know the OGs
Current Social Stats (for accountability):
What changed? I spent extra hours making videos that infused storytelling.
A lot more work, but it’s paying off.
Till I write to you next.
Stay purposeful, and you won’t go astray.
Abdussalam