“I haven’t written in weeks. Not because I had nothing to say, but because I had too much.”

A lot of moving pieces. A lot of contemplation.

I wrote drafts, but they stayed buried. None felt good enough to hit publish.

Until today.

I’m learning to get over perfectionism and nostalgia.

What Happened in May?

Week 1 – Visited Leye. We talked about religion, life, and ambition. That conversation still lingers.

Week 2 – Exams. Clients. Full-day shifts. I went off 𝕏.

Week 3 – Attended Figma Config. Visited family. Got fined in London.

Week 4 – Revisited to London for a Webflow meetup. Finished exams. Got a business coach.

Week 5 – Recalibrated on my why after feeling Mentally stuck.

Week 6 – Present day.

Now it’s June we are in the first ten days of Dhul Hijjah. Sacred days for us Muslims. I’ve got no part-time shifts. Also got fired by a client.

And for the first time in a while, I’ve slowed down.

Reading more. Chasing my curiosity. Praying better.

I Burned Out

But not in the usual way.

I wasn’t tired because I couldn’t keep up.

I was tired because I didn’t want to.

Constantly chasing design ideas for 𝕏, trying to go viral, playing the game.

It worked, I grew to 7K. But somewhere along the way, I lost the joy.

So I stopped.

Not forever. Just long enough to remember why I started.

What I Remembered

Something Leye and a few top designers at Config reminded me of:

to chase my curiosity “I want to create motion art for the web.”

Micro-interactions. Thoughtful animations. Design that feels alive.

Why? Because it’s cool. And because it’s hard. That’s what makes it worth it.

And while I explore this space, I’m also:

• Figuring out freelancing

• Learning to close better deals

• Making videos again (I shot a day in the life vlog!)

• Keeping my other skills sharp

Lesson From My Business Coach

We had our first call a few days ago. He asked me:

“What’s your 5-year goal?”

I froze. Then blurted out the biggest, wildest version of my future income goals, marriage, the kind of life I want. It sounded ridiculous… but he smiled.

He helped me break it down into systems to get there.

In the 3,600 second conversation, one line stayed with me:

“Work on your business, not just in it.”

so, I'm learning how to do that better.

Where I Am Financially

I’ve made just over $10K this year so far.

$7K has been paid. The rest? Still being chased down.

I’m not rich, but I’m safe.

Part-time work sucks, but I’m covered even if freelancing slows down.

That peace of mind changed how I move.

Maybe that’s why I’m less aggressive with content.

But I’m still hungry, just differently now.

A Spiritual Shift

Lately, I’ve stepped away from self-help content.

No more Hormozi quotes shouting in the background.

Instead, I’m drawn to:

• Books

• Podcasts

• Duas

• Dhikr

• Long walks and reflections

There’s this bond I’m building with Allah, and it feels safe.

Like I’m no longer trying to do life alone.

Still Growing, Just Quieter

Even in this slower phase, I’ve been:

• Practising design

• Learning new tools

• Gyming

• Reading

• Calling my mum

• Praying with more intention

Could I be doing more? Probably.

But I’m in my wander phase: a quiet limbo before the next purposeful pursuit hunts me down.

And that’s okay.

What’s New?

Last week, I shared a day in the life video.

I also bought a camera, the kind real photographers use. It felt good.

And I’ve been going live on 𝕏 and YouTube while designing a new site from scratch.

Creating without pressure feels free again.

To Summarize

If I’ve learned anything lately, it’s this:

Having money doesn’t solve everything,

But it gives you room to think, pause, and reflect.

To breathe.

And in that stillness, I’ve found deep gratitude.

Gratitude to God for provision, for peace, for perspective.

Even after losing a retainer client, I’m not in the red. What a privilege.

Alhamdulilah.

I’m still ambitious. Still dreaming big.

But now, I’m learning to balance that ambition with reflection.

Maybe falling off is exactly what I need to come back more focused, more grounded, more me.

Thanks for reading.

Till I write to you again,
Stay purposeful and you won’t go astray.

— Abdussalam